log cabin - thank you

September of 2007 I began a journey of discovery.  I visited my hometown in the northwestern part of Wisconsin and was compelled by instinct to take my savings and invest in a parcel of land at the south end of the lake where I was raised.  The voice in my head I referred to as my FIELD OF DREAMS speaking to me.  I purchased the land which is 1000 miles from where I live in New York City without a plan or vision.
Over these past few years my life changed and it was all due to the inner voice saying - "Do this.  You will know why in time."
I started with a rental trailer, and then the purchase of my own.  I felt this would be enough.  Right.  Then the log cabin idea came to me through my friend Karla.  I found a cabin built in Amish territory in central Wisconsin.  The workmanship was old world and simple.  Perfect.  It was transported to my little 5 acres on the south end of the lake.  I was so proud.  With each and every step of the way, with the help of my friends and those around, I developed this little sanctuary into a sacred space only for me.  The corner of the Wood Lake spoke to me.  It reminded me of the boy I left behind, the Prince of the North Shore.  For more than one reason I needed to reclaim that boy and bring him into the adult that I thought I had grown into.
You see this log cabin was a vessel for me to grow.  It gave me permission to step away from my 25 year relationship because that itself was overdue and we were broken.  It unveiled the reality that we needed to go our separate ways.  With every trip back I deconstructed my father, who sold off our beloved family vacation cabin in the mid 70's due to my mother's failing health and financial needs, but all I did was blame him for another let down. A fracture that never mended and was ever talked about while he was alive.    So this little cabin let me deconstuct my father, forgive him and build him into the imperfect man that he was, allowing me to love him for the first time, the way a son should love his father.  
I created something from nothing.  It was all in my heart.  The healing I needed came organically and allowed me to step into a new chapter of my life.  This cabin opened the conversation to family and friends that has blessed me with another house on the lake that I could have never imagined would be mine.
But stories have endings and today marked that back binding of the story of the Log Cabin.  I have sold the cabin to two who I never met as the landscape around the cabin has changed and so have I.
This is the ultimate "letting go" as I have loved this little cabin for the enormous lessons I have learned, the silence that I now embrace every day and the true gratitude that I feel for this life I have today.
Thank you to everyone who ever entered this sacred space and supported me on this real journey.
and so it is.......

in winter ....

in winter ....